officially closing this blog. i have transitioned to : http://psykonurz.blogs.friendster.com/psykonurz_raves_and_rants/
see ya!

I am wondering again. I received a text message from a former friend today.

I have been sending text messages to this person before asking how she is, several times for months since I left the account until I gave up because she never got back to me. I tried calling her landline but she is always not around or she lets the maid say on her behalf that she is busy... I try to IM her at work but she never responds...

Today she sent me a text message and called me to ask for a favor, and her number is still the same.

With no "How are yous" whatsoever... she just bluntly mentioned the favor that she wanted from me. She was so persistent that she couldn't wait for my reply and began to call me... expecting me to say yes.

Then I wondered.... aren't friends supposed to keep in touch even if they don't need a favor from the other? I'm not asking for much. There are a lot of friends from my old account who I am not that close with but they still keep in touch. They text me or IM me once a month but I know they are still there. Some send me a quick "Hi" through my blog or through Friendster. Nagpaparamdam kumbaga... and that means a lot to me.

I said "Long time no hear" Then she said "I was really busy." Then I asked "What happened to you?" Then she said "Nothing much, I just had no time to text you about petty stuff." Then I said "How are you?" Then she said "Can you do the favor I am asking or not?"

Hmmm... talk about rapport, huh? Considering we were part of a customer service team before.

I am sorry, but too much water has passed under the bridge. You are already part of the "Former Friends" list.

Cannonball-Damien Rice

There's Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
There's Still a little hard to say what's going on
There's Still a little bit of your ghost, your weakness
There's Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love,it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

There's Still a little bit of your song in my ear
There's Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon..
Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Things are now okay. Got things cleared up. He never met up with his friend nor his X-girlfriend. He thought of me. How I would feel.

I am truly happy.

X-girlfriend sends you notes via the net and you reply. You tell a part of it but not the whole story. You said her brother is here but you failed to mention that she is here too.

Makes you wonder why that detail was omitted. If its nothing, why omit?

Don't care who your friends are, they may be people in your past life. But what keeps the thinking going is why lie? Omitting is still lying because its not the whole truth. There is no such thing as a half-truth because the word itself is a synonym for a LIE.

Just wondering.

Kelan ba kayo ikakasal?

I don't get annoyed when my friends ask me this but I do get annoyed when asked by unsignificant bitches who mean something else when they ask me... hello, hinde ka naman invited so baket ka nagtatanong. Hmph.

Honestly, we are taking our time. We are not in a hurry.. We are waiting for Caleruega. We have been waitlisted for 2 years. We have our deadline as to when we will give up and look for another venue. Anyways, what what do you care? Eh hinde pa nga e. Live with it, ok?

Parasites... I hate them

Relatives who come to you to ask for money. Relatives who don't even lift a freakin' finger to make their lives better. Just because they think you are well-off, they make you feel obliged to give them money. And if you don't give, ikaw pa ang masama. They promise to return the money but they never do.

Ever since I had a job I never asked money from anyone. Not even my parents.

Swerte raw kame because we earn a lot and they make it sound like its our fault.

Hello! It's not called luck- its called hard work.

I am so mad.

Song in my head...

Collide - Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

Yeah I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

I am back to blogging again. I have been through so much and I don't know where to start. A few months after leaving Mcro, I get a call from my old center and I land a supervisory job that pays well, the office is near my place, (I can literally walk to work) and the workload is just right. Just when I think all is going well, I get a very unusual IM from the person I directly report to.

Person: Do you know why I hired you for this account?
Me: Why?
Person: Because among all the applicants, you have the biggest boobs.
**silence**

My bad. I should have not been silent because I was offended. I only told him his comments were inappropriate after a few weeks of the same IM torture, but still he kept on IMing me obscene and inappropriate comments. I filed a complaint. Went through the usual process and all he got was a written reprimand.

One thing that happened that drove the final nail was when some guys were outside the office and one of them pulled me to go inside the car. I pulled away and ran as fast as I could. Later on I saw that these guys were my boss' friends.

I can laugh at this whole situation now that I am out of it. I miss Macromedia. I miss the people there. Totally different from those in the outside world.

God is good because I as soon as I left, there was an opening at my old boss' office. I still have a job.

I am a regular church goer but sometimes I can't help but question the priest's homily sometimes. Last Sunday I attended 6am mass and the priest who gave out the homily was a visitng priest. He said "...the reason why there are rich and poor people is because the rich should give to the poor so that everyone would be equal..." Then he was talking about giving money to help the poor etc.

I honestly contest this statement because for me, people who are poor are either 1) poor because they are just plain lazy or 2) poor because they are not doing anything to improve their life

What if you keep on giving money but the person you are giving money to becomes a parasite? I find it quite unfair that people who have something are required to give. You just dont give away hard earned money. I remember the saying " Don't give the man a fish, but teach him how to fish"

Just my two cents.