I have never been so annoyed by Init Ulo during the past years of our relationship until today... to think its my birthday.

We waited for the mall to open then once we got out of the office, he said he wanted to go to McDonald's and buy an apple pie. McDonald's El Pueblo. I didn't want to go and walk all the way there. Why not go to McDonald's Megamall instead?! Grrr I was soooo annoyed. When we got to McDonald's he ordered his apple pie to go. Then all of a sudden he wanted to eat the apple pie there. SO ANNOYING!!! I wanted to go to the mall, buy my book then leave and go to sleep. All of a sudden he wanted to eat the apple pie on the 2nd floor. I told him "Why what's wrong with the seats downstairs?" He said that he just wanted to. SO ANNOYING AGAIN!!! When we went upstairs he was looking around...

What a surprise! Pornz, Jarjar, Meme, Ice, Marlon, Mel, Benz, Meng, Ivy, Mom Jay & Joie were there...

This was one of the best birthdays I had ever. Pornz was the one who planned the surprise McDonald's birthday party for me.

Trisha came in after, so did Ian and Mae. Jhon called me up, greeted me and apologized for not being there. I know that he had to attend a wedding.

Pornz had to leave early because of work or else Ren might raise hell when she comes in late hehehe

I scanned the room and looked at everyone while they were eating. I knew everyone was already tired, but they were there. I missed the other oldies who couldn't be there.

Words cannot express how I feel but I was really touched. I had to hold back the tears kse nakakahiya! McDo yun eh :P

Thank you so very much! This will truly be one of the memories that I will cherish.

I got the visa today... just waiting for the employment papers...

For me nothing is sure until I hold everything in my hands. The employer called me yesterday morning and informed me that I can go there and 'hang around' for a while before I work - just to begin my adjustment to the 'new' environment. They want me to explore before I work but this would be at my own expense. Like duh! Work will start months after June, no definite date yet and I don't want to ask any more money from my parents. I told my employer that I will go there once I am given the exact date that I will start to work. I don't want to waste my savings just like that... to think that my savings will only be a measly amount when its converted to AUD.

I was planning to give my resignation letter this coming April or May, but I think I will hold on to it for a while.

I don't want to waste time and money 'hanging around.' I am already turning a year older this month and I want things to be precise...concrete.

:) Definitely Leaving :(

I have ambivalent feelings towards leaving my current job mainly because of the TRUE friends I have at work. After almost two years here I have come to know who the wolves are from the sheep.

The time has already come for me to move on. I know I have been waiting for this for a long time. I will be leaving for the land of the kangaroos and koalas this coming late June or early July and its already definite. I did not expect this to come so soon.

I will still keep in touch with my REAL friends here. I am very happy that they came into my life.

A few more months and I'm off! I will try to be the best that I can be during these remaining months.

I came across this quote...

"How can you assume to be friends with someone when all you think about when you look at him is how much more you really want?"

Its hard. I don't want my friend to get hurt. I can see that she's happy... but I don't know for how long. I don't know what to think. He likes her. She likes him. Its complicated because he has someone in his life. I'm worried about my friend... she might fall into a dark pit and there is no turning back...

I told her to take care of herself. There is nothing I can do. There is nothing that even her best friends can do...

All the answers lie within her.
All I can do is worry.
All I can do I look from afar and hope for the best ...

Late Meteor Garden Fever

I never gave a s**t to F4 or Meteor Garden. I think the show already ended ages ago but lately I was intrigued why a lot of people liked it... even my best friends came to watch the show... they got DVD/VCDs with the English subtitles. They even told me to watch it. I always held back and said 'Yuck- there is no way that you can make me watch it. Sige magpakajologs kayo'

Just last month, because of so much curiosity, I borrowed the Season 1 VCDs from Purple Goddess. I told her 'I bet ill return it to you tomorrow because I know I will just get bored.' She said 'Hahahah I bet hinde.' And she was right.

Its not the typical telenovela... it is really a good series. (just get the ones with the English subtitles please! the Tagalog dubbing really sucks) In some ways I know why the typical Pinoy loves it. The poor girl in this show is not that all kawawa. She may have no money but she really is something. Compare this to the Pinoy telenovelas where the poor person only has a chance to fight back when they become rich towards the end of the series.

Well I hate to admit it but I found myself addicted just like my other friends. I even ordered for the original DVDs. Jologs kung jologs. hmph!!!

They say the best songs that you hear are about broken hearts... My heart is not broken... In fact, I am very happy. But I still like to sing these sad songs... its more real... more heartfelt.

I have walked and searched the malls in Makati just to find a Lara Fabian CD - but it is out of stock. I was so desperate in getting one so I sent a text message to ask Ms. Explain and Nemo and if they were going to the mall since they are near Robinsons, Podium and Megamall. Nemo was successful in finding me a Lara Fabian CD and for that I am extremely grateful.

This song made me miss the Center for Pop Music Philippines... I wish I had more time in finishing my lessons. But the time I only have is for me to get some sleep...

Broken Vow

Tell me her name
I want to know
The way she looks
And where you go
I need to see her face
I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again
I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night
When I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own

I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch
That one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time

I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There's more to life than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes

I'd give away my soul
To hold you once again
And never let this promise end